I am starting this blog to write about issues in my life, mainly the spiritual issues. As a human being, I am far from perfect... as a Christian, I am even more not perfect. However, based on the song from Sara Groves called "Painting Pictures of Egypt" I have come to understand that many Christians (including me) paint pictures of Egypt that are all "good", "pretty", "acceptable", and "angelic". Yet, we forget to "paint pictures" of the things that Egypt lacks (as in Christianity)... "mistakes", "disobedience", "desires that are human but not of Christ", and such things like that.
I get really tired of having to "act" like the perfect Christian (which I really don't do but somehow am still perceived to be) when I know it is OKAY to be myself. If I make mistakes, am not graceful, compassionate, or perhaps get mad and yell at God, not forgive, etc... that is OKAY. Because I am still learning. We all FALL Short of Christ's example. We are not perfect and it is unrealistic to paint a picture of it and EXPECT it from me or anyone else for that matter.
I want people to know what I have learned, what I believe... and even the mistakes and sin that led me to those beliefs or values, etc. Maybe even mistakes that make me seem even more human, (not necessarily meaning it changed my views, or made me feel a certain way) so that I can be honest about who I am. I want to have TRUE Integrity... but if I "fake" being the way people want me to be... then I am not being honest or have integrity.
I struggle EVERYDAY, EVERY MINUTE in my spiritual life. I many times forget to pray (especially when I am not in NEED of something), I forget to read the Bible, and sometimes I get really mad at God and I let HIM know in whatever way I can. UNCENSORED. He is a BIG GUY and I know He can handle it. Sometimes my life is a mess... other times it is stable. I do have problems with forgiving... but I do try (mainly with certain people).
Life is not easy... it changes quickly, becomes tangible, sometimes unforgettable, other times it is forgettable. For me... I like being in places hat are familiar... that I know. It is a comfort zone for me. Everyone knows stepping out of your comfort zone can put in in hot water, and that can become scary. Thats why the journey of a Christian life, having a spiritual life... is not all its cut out to be... Egypt is not PRETTY, not in the whole picture. That is what this blog is about. Both the Beautiful, and the not so beautiful. I hope to share with you my journey, my experiences, and so on.
Last but not least... please be patient with me. For I am not as mature in Christ as many would think I am or expect me to be. I am still in many ways a baby in Christ... and in my opinion that is okay. You can provide input (if it is intended to uplift, not discourage), even provide an experience of your own... but mainly just listen (read). For I know this is another way for me to grow, as I love to write, and it forces me to think carefully and be sure I can stand up to what I have learned and believe, etc.
Welcome to RaeGypt... and I will not leave out what I "lack". :)
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